"We're not necessarily doubting that God will do the best for us; we are wondering how painful the best will turn out to be." C.S. Lewis
I had copied this quote down some time ago (wish I had dated it!) and this morning as I was pasting another quote onto that page this JUMPED out at me. Nor do I know how long ago C.S. Lewis penned those words. What I do know: no words could, at the moment, better express my thoughts and feelings as I try and reconcile my strong faith and belief in my Triune God and His Written Word and the pain I am feeling with my precious Suzette being taken to Heaven at this time.
I KNOW that God's plans and purposes are perfect and that He desires nothing but good and the best for His beloved body, of which I am a part. I also know, as one of the condolence cards I received so aptly said, that when I get to Heaven I will no longer ask "why" but say only two words, "of course".
I also KNOW that it is totally foolish to even ask "why" because that is the one question God never answers. Even when Christ asked "why have you forsaken me" on that Cross.....no answer came from God. Yet as human beings we always seem to not only ask "why" but believe somewhere, some place, some how we will get an answer!!
Yes, God's best for me at this time is undoubtedly THE most painful thing I've ever been called upon to go through, and yet I do and will trust.
How could I not when I serve such a God and have seen His hand, direction and work in my life these many long 73 years?